Dear Jez
Ah hahahaha your website is so funny… don’t worry, I’m not going to say your work is shit.
I’m out turning the internet upside down a bit pitching and out hunting for art and music contractors that I can work with.
So, just to introduce myself, my art only went as far as art foundation as I decided to do an academic degree; what I am doing now is to commission graphic art about neuroscience- yes neuroscience and nothing else.
I have my rusty Adobe Photoshop skills and did not look at my graphics portfolio for a couple of years, I know I can switch the MAC computer on and get designing and my skills will come back, but it is a rather large project.
May I just tell you what my project is about? Basically I am inviting you to do work 100 years late. I have identified a huge knowledge gap in the world and as I was reading up about TARA in America I realized that while there are 10 personality disorders as laid out by the professional psychologists, altogether they deserve the amount of attention that cancer gets, due to their seriousness and the number of lives that are affected by them, but the issue just does not receive such attention because of the huge barriers to knowledge transfer. I am specifically interested in bringing knowledge of 2 personality disorders to the world, the least well-known ones- the narcissistic and anti-social personality disorder. Anti-social personality disorder really has nothing to do with anti-social behaviour at all; ASPD is very much more serious than throwing things through windows and whatnot.
Now, I have read over 50 books on the subject, enough to make me sick, and there are some basic facts that need to be communicated to the lots of lots of people out there because the vast majority of other methods used to reach them fail (failures in magazine journalism, newspaper journalism, central government education reforms as they chronically lack data to use for justification, professors write papers in publications but nobody reads them outside of academia). Yes, the other methods will work maybe 80 years late, that is just too late and I find it to be unacceptable. Something needs to cut in fast, and while I have enough content there to generate enough songs to be published across a dozen albums (I published 2 songs last year), I also want to support endeavours in graphic design.
Anti-social personality disorder is also called sociopathy. What teachers did not tell me in high school, when they were teaching me about smoking, anorexia, drink-driving, please-don’t-take-heorin, is that, sociopaths (or psychopaths) are very difficult to spot, most are Not. serial killers and most of them live well outside of the prison, we assume that we’d be able to spot a psychopath if we ever saw one but that is not true- victims do not know something is wrong for a year or two when they know the psychopath well, then one day, the truth is revealed and everything crashes. History repeats itself in a new place. The diagnostic statistical manual (fourth edition) gives a diagnostic criteria for anti-social personality disorder, even Dr. Robert Hare- an expert in the field- failed to distinguish a sociopath in his own personal life.
Now this sounds scary as hell, so the purpose of the graphic design project is to look at broad trends and broad patters, population statistics and case studies, common themes, and lay the facts down digitally and on paper. This enables people to absorb important knowledge when they are relaxed and can take it easy so they are stimulated and intrigued, and be able to use the knowledge one day, rather than when they are deeply traumatized and they read psychology books full of words but cannot concentrate or heal. Magazine journalists want to interview the victims, but some of them died of suicide and the remaining suffer from post-traumatic stress disorder, one symptom of this is the inability to recall what happened. So how are interviewees supposed to give information if they cannot use their brains to recall what happened? As a child I assumed that the only time people would suffer memory loss was if there was a big crash in something like a car accident, but actually PTSD causes memory loss as well. People have lost life as it is but they do not even know why that is, in a way that is doubly tragic. This explains why for as long as human civilization has existed, this vicious cycle has existed and currently it is a terrible burden on the British tax system since each ASPD costs £ 31,240 per year with no hope of rehabilitation. This is something that I found really tough, they really cannot reform their characters, by the age of 15 that’s that and nothing that therapists will ever do will actually be of any help, until someone wins the Nobel Prize with a cure I suppose. I wish sociopaths could just swallow a pill and sort it all out, but there is no pill.
My email is probably so bloody long that you want to turn all this into typography. The graphic design project is manageable as it is turning neuroscience facts to graphics. There are some key facts about the condition: 4 % of the population are sociopathic, they have an inaccurate perception of self and are never able to view events accurately no matter how intelligent they are, lives are devastated beyond repair and I am an exceptionally fortunate victim as I have received spiritual support from an Earl, a Lord, a Right Honourable, Chairmen of companies whom I fiercely protected, which was such a long story… well I protected so I was protected, ultimately, in return…
This project is loved by a dozen doctors that I talked to, various British politicians that I talked to (what they hate the most is a destructive burden on the tax system), the Harvard professors who wrote letters to me, the UCL professors who wrote letters to me, 2 lawyers who have somehow become fans of my music and that is so random- ., people who’ve cried on my shoulder etc. I need to write a more detailed business plan, finished books can be published (I don’t know much about the processes of book publishing but can put things online first) and formulate something like a save-a-friend scheme, school teachers are not capable of saving us on this front until 80 years or so later and so a teenage kid can spend 5 quid on buying a graphics book (that hasn’t got an education agenda but is actually education) because given the 4% figure, the friend will probably need the knowledge one day given the life expectancy is 79 years old, and while we cannot realistically avoid persons with anti-social personality disorder we can realistically make dramatic improvements on how a person copes once the worst has happened.
So would you like to do some of this work? Harvard Professors are dying for more awarness since they don’t want doctors to have to pick up PTSD patients who are almost dead, intervention needs to work a number of steps before PTSD- for the same reason our school teachers told us what anorexia was when we were in high school because once the problem gets too serious, things are out of hand and it is all too late.
Martha Stout won the ‘Book for a Better Life Award’ by publishing the book ‘The Socipoath Next Door’, I should do the knowledge-sharing and demand an award…
100 years late!!!
If possible, you can give this proposal to tutors at art college as well!
You’re having your summer holiday anyway so come out!
Yours
Saturday 26 June 2010
Sunday 18 April 2010
Post-traumatic Stress Disorder
In life, in some areas there can be no transparency, I want to know some things but not knowing them makes me feel lonely. Nonetheless, I might as well pray for those people who probably suffer from post-traumatic stress disorder from working with a colleague who has anti-social personality disorder, oh heck, all the torture and daily sinister deeds.........
Sunday 4 April 2010
Music Recording and my vulgar body
I know I am still very busy, but I will share a few experiences from making recordings of music.
My singing self can have food& fuel issues, an ordinary amount of foodstuffs inside my system is not necessarily enough for the task of singing. I don't know how you find it if you're a singer, but I tend to need to go into a session on a full stomach.
I also need to be very fully hydrated, but then when I recorded songs last time, I was burping here and there under such well-fed conditions which was of course undesirable... In normal circumstances, gentle burping here and there wouldn't be any significant issue, but while all of the recording equipment was out, it became challenging!
From the singing recently, the O sound has been stronger than most other vowels... It is hard work and even harder work at a recording, to the extent that I actually felt devastated after a recording session last time... I am a highly trained artist too and the tutors always said being a high-quality artist is a case of having minor nervous breakdowns from working so hard, I find this to be perfectly true, about us creative people.
I've been doing fast singing recently, wait, how the hell does it work to go from having such a remarkably traumatized heart to fast singing... it's so high-energy. Slow songs are kinder for the time being.
My singing self can have food& fuel issues, an ordinary amount of foodstuffs inside my system is not necessarily enough for the task of singing. I don't know how you find it if you're a singer, but I tend to need to go into a session on a full stomach.
I also need to be very fully hydrated, but then when I recorded songs last time, I was burping here and there under such well-fed conditions which was of course undesirable... In normal circumstances, gentle burping here and there wouldn't be any significant issue, but while all of the recording equipment was out, it became challenging!
From the singing recently, the O sound has been stronger than most other vowels... It is hard work and even harder work at a recording, to the extent that I actually felt devastated after a recording session last time... I am a highly trained artist too and the tutors always said being a high-quality artist is a case of having minor nervous breakdowns from working so hard, I find this to be perfectly true, about us creative people.
I've been doing fast singing recently, wait, how the hell does it work to go from having such a remarkably traumatized heart to fast singing... it's so high-energy. Slow songs are kinder for the time being.
Saturday 3 April 2010
Calling All Actors and All Actresses!! Now! Not 125 years later
Dear Nez
Hi!!!!! I haven't seen you for ages, I'm just being cheeky writing to you- how're you doing? I am actually writing to you about comedy, drama, and even potentially a bit of TV.
Vicky is coming to see us in a couple of weeks... I saw her 3 times last year... was eating strawberries and drinking champagne.
I know I'm really busy and shouldn't write too many emails, but there's stuff I'm going to do.
Basically, I propose to do (a) music making to produce songs about elementary neuroscience (b) potentially graphic books about neuroscience issues, in the category of entertainment and comedy, I do have very decent art skills from art foundation and (c) maybe tentatively , the making of comedy to related themes. I've been doing comedy improv for fun, it's hilarious, but anything acting-related is stuff I feel I have the least understanding of: I got a grade 7 in acting, I don't even know what that means.
So, to get to the point,
all of this is because I have come to realise that the world faces a huge challenge, a huge problem that is barely publicized. In a way, it is a medical- physiological problem, on the same scale as cancer in terms of how many lives are ruined/ affected but the media does not talk about it nearly enough. Thinking of perspectives from the history of medicine, it's a lot of waiting and anticipating before someone wins the Nobel Prize and finally gets the cure, but a lot of suffering before that. To be clear, the problem is narcissistic personality disorder and anti-social personality disorder.
So, what's the relevance to comedy and entertainment? For reasons that really take quite some time to explain, comedy is potentially one of the very few effective means of engaging attention on this issue, which is also why I want to produce semi-popular music on it as it's one of the very few effective means of raising attention.
This is not meant to trivialize the predicament of victims, but to reach out to people with basic scientific facts that they need before they get into serious trouble, so my mission has a huge humanitarian motivation.
To get more specific about acting, and what acting-related stuff I can do, I am hoping that I will be able to work with writers/ actors to get the talented actors to act out something, hopefully film it with any odd domestic equipment/ semi-domestic equipment, and do something with it in a business plan, send it out everywhere to people who need to see it the most (nearly 100% of the population, really. Fine, if they have the patience, go into the British libarary to dig out books published by Yale University Press instead like I did...)
I don't really know how the commissioning structures of the drama world work, but narcissistic sociopaths, also called persons with Anti-social personality disorder, cost 31,240 pounds of tax per sociopath per year, incurring a huge and incredible amount of human suffering (myself being one victim. So I am trying to act fast instead of leaving the problem there for 100 years or so, the world has wrestled with this problem unsuccessfully for the past 100 years, in fact, for the past 2000 years.
In terms of the sketch itself, it would be good if the writer(s) (and I have relevant knowledge from reading 12 psychology books) can concentrate on a few concepts:
-the obsessive concern with the age of 15
-the concept of permanence, something that doesn't revert back to what it was before
-one character changing his life's history with every new character coming along- where he was born, in what circumstances he was born in, who his parents were, who his extended family were
-most importantly, a sketch on deception. According to the DSM-IV, diagnostic statistical manual of mental disorders fourth edition, pathological lying is one prominent condition of antisocial personality disorder, and it succeeds for a while, even up to a year sometimes, because of the processes of socialization and unsuspecting victims.
etc.
these are some provisional ideas.
I was really shocked to learn that anti-social personality disorder is set by the age of 15. It was one hell of a super difficult job for me to even get through to the word 'sociopath' as my school never told me anything about them. I didn't realise most psychopaths are not serial killers (psychopaths are sociopaths) and I didn't realise that most sociopaths actually live outside prison and I didn't realise that 4% of the population are actually sociopathic, getting through twice a dozen victims each year and it is like that every year since the age of 15. People need to know this so that they are better at staying away and avoiding them fast. I didn't manage to avoid it all, but was fighting fraud fiercely in summer '09 and Earl of Home wrote me a nice letter when he was on holiday and he called himself David....!!!!!
We don't really normally think about the age of 15. Recently, I've been quite obsessively interested in the age of 8 because of greek mythological stuff that I've been enjoying in my leisure time, this princess got a vision on her 8th birthday, on the prince's 8th birthday something would happen- ah nice.
I'm just thinking, it could be nice to do some social drama, but still drama of good quality- not drama of diminished quality because its social nature gives some excuse for the quality to be reduced.
So: I could have 2 13-yr-old characters having a fun chat, talking about how life will be like at the age of 15;
in another scene, I could have 3 15-yr-old characters having a fun chat about oh HOW FIFTEEN WE ARE!!!
Then in yet another scene, have some 18yr old, 20yr old, 35yr old, 55yr old etc. characters reminiscing about things that happened when they were fifteen- totally unrelated to antisocial personality disorder. It's all a laugh.
So this is a sketch obsessively going on about being fifteen years old, and the audience needs to be very gently introduced to the occurrence of anti-social personality disorder by the age of 15, maybe in a screen with text written on it, and this is really the unfunny part. But, they need to realise that a problem exists so that if it affects them and they encounter an ASPD (for example, anaroexia is another problem , etc) they know where to begin research and access other scientific facts, like it is just not their fault, ASPDs are remorseless (which is the chilling thing) , etc.
Inevitably, this is very sensitive, but telling people out there is a lot better than leaving them out there to die, people need to know that problems are out there so they can figure out how to handle them, not remain oblivious to them at their peril. Likewise, I think a sketch on deception could be really awesome and fun, but this also has the very serious side and the fun is not meant to be at the expense of suffering victims etc. it is there to prevent suffering more than the status quo reduces suffering. The sketch can just be based on some very basic domestic scenarios, 'did you take my hand mirror?? Do you know anything about it? ' ... 'nope', that kind of stuff
Just to give you some reasons/ notes on why people do not already know about personality disorders:
psychologists with PhDs who've been based at Harvard for 20+years etc. have felt incredibly frustrated that the media does not raise nearly enough attention that the issue deserves. This is at the expense of ordinary people who suffer the most
the media don't even write the word 'sociopath' in the magazines, newspapers etc, for fear of getting sued by that sociopath in a 100,000 pounds defamation lawsuit. Even if the magazine successfully defends, it is possible that the sociopath will never be able to pay the defence costs from getting ordered by the courts to pay it, so even if the sociopath goes bankrupt, the media organizations has lost 100,000 pounds or so- and may have to file for bankruptcy too. Basically, we have to rely on far less traditional means of getting the message out.
a lot of victims die, like they're made homeless then they die of some random disease, they die of post-traumatic stress disorders etc, suicide etc., out of those who live, most do not want to talk about their traumas. The government gets very inaccurate statistics on the number of cases etc., they really should recommend to the boards of education that all 16-yr-olds and 17-yr-olds should be educated about antisocial personality disorder, the same way they are educated about smoking, contraceptives, anaroexia, gender differences etc. But as the information they're getting is so inaccurate, it's not enough for them to rely on to propose educational schemes. So most people still grow up into people who don't understand some of the dangers that they have to face, in my case my life was going great and then it completely fell apart and Parliament has been taking good good care of me, phoning me up more often than my friends call me!
Okay then, without meaning to make this email even longer, I hope I haven't scared you off completely!!! So I basically have a social drama proposal, at least I want to tell you about it even though I don't quite know what directions you're going in and I don't know if you'll be able to do anything about it. But I am certain that the TV will have to cover this stuff somehow. If it is really boring nobody will pay attention and few will be saved, that's also the problem. I could just go and write the studies/ sketches on deception etc., it is just so time-consuming and I wouldn't mind working with someone to take some workload off. I am very happy to utilize the knowledge in psychology that I've had to gain (no one helped me really!!!! So I had to do it myself! Painful, read so many books that it made me sick, I've got studied by sociologists in Texas and psychologists too) . Music-wise I'll be out hunting for a guitarist and composer, I have music 'oh... they are so bad for you..... they're bad for fish eyes... bad for frogs' legs... bad for cats' tails.... bad for you and me.... they are sociopaths'
I don't really believe in bitter things like writing letters to press for the release of prisoners who're imprisoned for complicated reasons, human rights issues. The difficulty with this sort of thing is that it can accomplish little, make me feel bitter and depressed when I wasn't directly involved, and even add some risk to myself in making my name and address known to some really quite scary people. I would rather be joyous and proposing to save the world at the same time, I don't want to wait for so many deaths in the next 100 years for me to wonder hmmm shall I do something about this then?
I don't think it does any harm for a writer and even some actors to work with me. It is about a set of generic stuff, not connected with any one person's particular case. It's disconnected from politics and law (often 2 very sensitive and controversial things) so I don't think professionals can get their lives into trouble from doing this project, it's just helping people. I've already told my ex-landlordie actors about all this, I can always contact every writer-actor I can think of, even if I get through over a hundred who're all doing something else I am sure I will eventually make a link with the appropriate writers/ actors who will get up and get all of this work done, under whatever commissioning structures and systems that they find feasible. It's far better than waiting and waiting for stuff that will never get done. But if you know anyone who is interested in this project, please send them all my way!!
Happy Easter
Hi!!!!! I haven't seen you for ages, I'm just being cheeky writing to you- how're you doing? I am actually writing to you about comedy, drama, and even potentially a bit of TV.
Vicky is coming to see us in a couple of weeks... I saw her 3 times last year... was eating strawberries and drinking champagne.
I know I'm really busy and shouldn't write too many emails, but there's stuff I'm going to do.
Basically, I propose to do (a) music making to produce songs about elementary neuroscience (b) potentially graphic books about neuroscience issues, in the category of entertainment and comedy, I do have very decent art skills from art foundation and (c) maybe tentatively , the making of comedy to related themes. I've been doing comedy improv for fun, it's hilarious, but anything acting-related is stuff I feel I have the least understanding of: I got a grade 7 in acting, I don't even know what that means.
So, to get to the point,
all of this is because I have come to realise that the world faces a huge challenge, a huge problem that is barely publicized. In a way, it is a medical- physiological problem, on the same scale as cancer in terms of how many lives are ruined/ affected but the media does not talk about it nearly enough. Thinking of perspectives from the history of medicine, it's a lot of waiting and anticipating before someone wins the Nobel Prize and finally gets the cure, but a lot of suffering before that. To be clear, the problem is narcissistic personality disorder and anti-social personality disorder.
So, what's the relevance to comedy and entertainment? For reasons that really take quite some time to explain, comedy is potentially one of the very few effective means of engaging attention on this issue, which is also why I want to produce semi-popular music on it as it's one of the very few effective means of raising attention.
This is not meant to trivialize the predicament of victims, but to reach out to people with basic scientific facts that they need before they get into serious trouble, so my mission has a huge humanitarian motivation.
To get more specific about acting, and what acting-related stuff I can do, I am hoping that I will be able to work with writers/ actors to get the talented actors to act out something, hopefully film it with any odd domestic equipment/ semi-domestic equipment, and do something with it in a business plan, send it out everywhere to people who need to see it the most (nearly 100% of the population, really. Fine, if they have the patience, go into the British libarary to dig out books published by Yale University Press instead like I did...)
I don't really know how the commissioning structures of the drama world work, but narcissistic sociopaths, also called persons with Anti-social personality disorder, cost 31,240 pounds of tax per sociopath per year, incurring a huge and incredible amount of human suffering (myself being one victim. So I am trying to act fast instead of leaving the problem there for 100 years or so, the world has wrestled with this problem unsuccessfully for the past 100 years, in fact, for the past 2000 years.
In terms of the sketch itself, it would be good if the writer(s) (and I have relevant knowledge from reading 12 psychology books) can concentrate on a few concepts:
-the obsessive concern with the age of 15
-the concept of permanence, something that doesn't revert back to what it was before
-one character changing his life's history with every new character coming along- where he was born, in what circumstances he was born in, who his parents were, who his extended family were
-most importantly, a sketch on deception. According to the DSM-IV, diagnostic statistical manual of mental disorders fourth edition, pathological lying is one prominent condition of antisocial personality disorder, and it succeeds for a while, even up to a year sometimes, because of the processes of socialization and unsuspecting victims.
etc.
these are some provisional ideas.
I was really shocked to learn that anti-social personality disorder is set by the age of 15. It was one hell of a super difficult job for me to even get through to the word 'sociopath' as my school never told me anything about them. I didn't realise most psychopaths are not serial killers (psychopaths are sociopaths) and I didn't realise that most sociopaths actually live outside prison and I didn't realise that 4% of the population are actually sociopathic, getting through twice a dozen victims each year and it is like that every year since the age of 15. People need to know this so that they are better at staying away and avoiding them fast. I didn't manage to avoid it all, but was fighting fraud fiercely in summer '09 and Earl of Home wrote me a nice letter when he was on holiday and he called himself David....!!!!!
We don't really normally think about the age of 15. Recently, I've been quite obsessively interested in the age of 8 because of greek mythological stuff that I've been enjoying in my leisure time, this princess got a vision on her 8th birthday, on the prince's 8th birthday something would happen- ah nice.
I'm just thinking, it could be nice to do some social drama, but still drama of good quality- not drama of diminished quality because its social nature gives some excuse for the quality to be reduced.
So: I could have 2 13-yr-old characters having a fun chat, talking about how life will be like at the age of 15;
in another scene, I could have 3 15-yr-old characters having a fun chat about oh HOW FIFTEEN WE ARE!!!
Then in yet another scene, have some 18yr old, 20yr old, 35yr old, 55yr old etc. characters reminiscing about things that happened when they were fifteen- totally unrelated to antisocial personality disorder. It's all a laugh.
So this is a sketch obsessively going on about being fifteen years old, and the audience needs to be very gently introduced to the occurrence of anti-social personality disorder by the age of 15, maybe in a screen with text written on it, and this is really the unfunny part. But, they need to realise that a problem exists so that if it affects them and they encounter an ASPD (for example, anaroexia is another problem , etc) they know where to begin research and access other scientific facts, like it is just not their fault, ASPDs are remorseless (which is the chilling thing) , etc.
Inevitably, this is very sensitive, but telling people out there is a lot better than leaving them out there to die, people need to know that problems are out there so they can figure out how to handle them, not remain oblivious to them at their peril. Likewise, I think a sketch on deception could be really awesome and fun, but this also has the very serious side and the fun is not meant to be at the expense of suffering victims etc. it is there to prevent suffering more than the status quo reduces suffering. The sketch can just be based on some very basic domestic scenarios, 'did you take my hand mirror?? Do you know anything about it? ' ... 'nope', that kind of stuff
Just to give you some reasons/ notes on why people do not already know about personality disorders:
psychologists with PhDs who've been based at Harvard for 20+years etc. have felt incredibly frustrated that the media does not raise nearly enough attention that the issue deserves. This is at the expense of ordinary people who suffer the most
the media don't even write the word 'sociopath' in the magazines, newspapers etc, for fear of getting sued by that sociopath in a 100,000 pounds defamation lawsuit. Even if the magazine successfully defends, it is possible that the sociopath will never be able to pay the defence costs from getting ordered by the courts to pay it, so even if the sociopath goes bankrupt, the media organizations has lost 100,000 pounds or so- and may have to file for bankruptcy too. Basically, we have to rely on far less traditional means of getting the message out.
a lot of victims die, like they're made homeless then they die of some random disease, they die of post-traumatic stress disorders etc, suicide etc., out of those who live, most do not want to talk about their traumas. The government gets very inaccurate statistics on the number of cases etc., they really should recommend to the boards of education that all 16-yr-olds and 17-yr-olds should be educated about antisocial personality disorder, the same way they are educated about smoking, contraceptives, anaroexia, gender differences etc. But as the information they're getting is so inaccurate, it's not enough for them to rely on to propose educational schemes. So most people still grow up into people who don't understand some of the dangers that they have to face, in my case my life was going great and then it completely fell apart and Parliament has been taking good good care of me, phoning me up more often than my friends call me!
Okay then, without meaning to make this email even longer, I hope I haven't scared you off completely!!! So I basically have a social drama proposal, at least I want to tell you about it even though I don't quite know what directions you're going in and I don't know if you'll be able to do anything about it. But I am certain that the TV will have to cover this stuff somehow. If it is really boring nobody will pay attention and few will be saved, that's also the problem. I could just go and write the studies/ sketches on deception etc., it is just so time-consuming and I wouldn't mind working with someone to take some workload off. I am very happy to utilize the knowledge in psychology that I've had to gain (no one helped me really!!!! So I had to do it myself! Painful, read so many books that it made me sick, I've got studied by sociologists in Texas and psychologists too) . Music-wise I'll be out hunting for a guitarist and composer, I have music 'oh... they are so bad for you..... they're bad for fish eyes... bad for frogs' legs... bad for cats' tails.... bad for you and me.... they are sociopaths'
I don't really believe in bitter things like writing letters to press for the release of prisoners who're imprisoned for complicated reasons, human rights issues. The difficulty with this sort of thing is that it can accomplish little, make me feel bitter and depressed when I wasn't directly involved, and even add some risk to myself in making my name and address known to some really quite scary people. I would rather be joyous and proposing to save the world at the same time, I don't want to wait for so many deaths in the next 100 years for me to wonder hmmm shall I do something about this then?
I don't think it does any harm for a writer and even some actors to work with me. It is about a set of generic stuff, not connected with any one person's particular case. It's disconnected from politics and law (often 2 very sensitive and controversial things) so I don't think professionals can get their lives into trouble from doing this project, it's just helping people. I've already told my ex-landlordie actors about all this, I can always contact every writer-actor I can think of, even if I get through over a hundred who're all doing something else I am sure I will eventually make a link with the appropriate writers/ actors who will get up and get all of this work done, under whatever commissioning structures and systems that they find feasible. It's far better than waiting and waiting for stuff that will never get done. But if you know anyone who is interested in this project, please send them all my way!!
Happy Easter
Saturday 20 March 2010
up there in my head
some words have been popping up for song lyrics......
autonomy, physiology, ... ~~ pornography, sociology ... astronomy..~~~
Ah hang on no astronomy, .. astronomy- is totally irrelevant, hahaha
autonomy, physiology, ... ~~ pornography, sociology ... astronomy..~~~
Ah hang on no astronomy, .. astronomy- is totally irrelevant, hahaha
Sunday 14 March 2010
George Galloway and Charity Commission
10th March 2010
To: George Galloway MP, House of Commons, London, SW1A 0AA
Dear George Galloway MP,
I have been a constituent of Right Honourable ** and I have been seeing him more often than my own friends, due to some serious issues, but on this occasion I am writing to you about the Charity Commission.
I have had my struggles with the Charity Commission and a quick internet search revealed that your opinion of the Charity Commission is consistent with what I have to say about this Charity Regulator, sadly speaking.
To be brief, I have had more than enough knowledge of a serious incident that took place at the registered educational charity that is *#@#*@# UK. This is mainly because they had the misfortune of employing a man whom I can now say is a sociopath with 100% confidence, someone who practically turned the place upside down. Other words for ‘sociopath’ include ‘anti-social personality disorder’ and ‘psychopathy’, which is permanent. In January 2009, I reported *****. Recently, I have had 2 formal documents for the Charity Commission to prove the damage of reputation as the charity tried to sue me for defamation. The case had no legal strength as the information that I disclosed to 1000 or so persons was so factual and provable with hard evidence, but the letters from lawyers (originally to me) do prove the damage of reputation concerning this registered educational charity and that is within the Charity Commission’s definition of what a serious incident is.
I am not a Trustee and it is not my job to report a serious incident. Here I am, writing letters to the Charity Commission to say they should at least log the Serious Incident and I also have indicators that there has been significant interference with the work of the charity which is also within the Commission’s definition of what a serious incident is, but even without such indicators, a serious incident already occurred last summer. The Charity Commission has read the 2 documents with the evidence that Asia House’s reputation was substantially damaged by August 2009, then they wrote back to me saying there was no evidence of the damage to its reputation. This is incredible. In the reporting of misconduct initially in early 2009, all that I wanted was to sleep at night, in peace, in warning the whole community of Mr. Sociopath who ‘got through’ a remarkable number of victims in just one year, and from the middle of ’09 to about now I had to write to Charity Commission employees to tell them to please do their jobs after all of it. Ironically, I am the true charity volunteer. Zealously helping and not paid at all. I have to feel concerned about the implications of the Commission’s incompetence and thus I feel quite anxious about the most vulnerable members of our society that are in the greatest need of charitable help- the homeless, alcoholics, the physically disabled, the bereaved, and so forth.
Is there anything that you and/or I can do to drive the Charity Commission into please doing their jobs? This issue should affect your constituents extensively as a great number of them will be in need of charitable help at some stage and a great number of them are volunteers. Of course, the public purse has no money really for this evil institution to waste on what you call the ‘hysterical campaign’. I find it incredibly frustrating that the Charity Commission interferes in cases where it should not and on the other hand, will not do the most basic paperwork in the universe in other cases– the logging of a serious incident, even when that is already 7 months late (which is ridiculous in the first place anyway). I thought it was a formal legal requirement.
So what plans do you and the rest of Parliament have to make the Charity Commission please do their jobs? I welcome any ideas as that would also encourage me to sleep at night…
Yours sincerely,
[signed]
To: George Galloway MP, House of Commons, London, SW1A 0AA
Dear George Galloway MP,
I have been a constituent of Right Honourable ** and I have been seeing him more often than my own friends, due to some serious issues, but on this occasion I am writing to you about the Charity Commission.
I have had my struggles with the Charity Commission and a quick internet search revealed that your opinion of the Charity Commission is consistent with what I have to say about this Charity Regulator, sadly speaking.
To be brief, I have had more than enough knowledge of a serious incident that took place at the registered educational charity that is *#@#*@# UK. This is mainly because they had the misfortune of employing a man whom I can now say is a sociopath with 100% confidence, someone who practically turned the place upside down. Other words for ‘sociopath’ include ‘anti-social personality disorder’ and ‘psychopathy’, which is permanent. In January 2009, I reported *****. Recently, I have had 2 formal documents for the Charity Commission to prove the damage of reputation as the charity tried to sue me for defamation. The case had no legal strength as the information that I disclosed to 1000 or so persons was so factual and provable with hard evidence, but the letters from lawyers (originally to me) do prove the damage of reputation concerning this registered educational charity and that is within the Charity Commission’s definition of what a serious incident is.
I am not a Trustee and it is not my job to report a serious incident. Here I am, writing letters to the Charity Commission to say they should at least log the Serious Incident and I also have indicators that there has been significant interference with the work of the charity which is also within the Commission’s definition of what a serious incident is, but even without such indicators, a serious incident already occurred last summer. The Charity Commission has read the 2 documents with the evidence that Asia House’s reputation was substantially damaged by August 2009, then they wrote back to me saying there was no evidence of the damage to its reputation. This is incredible. In the reporting of misconduct initially in early 2009, all that I wanted was to sleep at night, in peace, in warning the whole community of Mr. Sociopath who ‘got through’ a remarkable number of victims in just one year, and from the middle of ’09 to about now I had to write to Charity Commission employees to tell them to please do their jobs after all of it. Ironically, I am the true charity volunteer. Zealously helping and not paid at all. I have to feel concerned about the implications of the Commission’s incompetence and thus I feel quite anxious about the most vulnerable members of our society that are in the greatest need of charitable help- the homeless, alcoholics, the physically disabled, the bereaved, and so forth.
Is there anything that you and/or I can do to drive the Charity Commission into please doing their jobs? This issue should affect your constituents extensively as a great number of them will be in need of charitable help at some stage and a great number of them are volunteers. Of course, the public purse has no money really for this evil institution to waste on what you call the ‘hysterical campaign’. I find it incredibly frustrating that the Charity Commission interferes in cases where it should not and on the other hand, will not do the most basic paperwork in the universe in other cases– the logging of a serious incident, even when that is already 7 months late (which is ridiculous in the first place anyway). I thought it was a formal legal requirement.
So what plans do you and the rest of Parliament have to make the Charity Commission please do their jobs? I welcome any ideas as that would also encourage me to sleep at night…
Yours sincerely,
[signed]
Thursday 11 March 2010
Business plans for crocodile music
Dear M-P
Hellooooooo!! Hope your teachers are supportive of you (they seem to have a history of being unsupportive) and that you haven't been playing too much monopoly lately.. hehe
I was meant to email you earlier but didn't have the time... so are you still watching 'Dragon's Den', and what have you learnt from it?? I vaguely looked at it, wow it's so tough to be an entrepreneur, in a way it's a bit dirty really... a few attacks here and there... I guess that is necessary because the entrepreneurial world is highly demanding...
As I registered a company in my name in the middle of last year no. 696**** I got bullied the hell out of doing anything much really being a public sector employee at the time, what a shame...
but now that I'm in the Asia-Pacific Region I think I probably need to register it as a 'foreign' business and run all the business accounts from here. Aaahhh if I was a qualified accountant and bookeeper, I could do it all myself and wouldn't need to pay someone to do it- heheheh...
Something on the side...
I basically want to commission a whole load of music that educate the public about basic neuroscience facts, mainly to educate people about anti-social personality disorder... there are about 10 different personality disorders and I think I'll concentrate on 2-3. I have identified a gap in the 'MARKET' because this is something that really needs to be done but journalists won't be talking about it in the newspapers and magazines for fear of bankruptcy-inducing 100,000 pounds defamation lawsuits (which is a bit of a complicated story), teachers should tell you about this stuff now at school when they tell you all about the anaroexia etc. but this sort of thing won't happen for ANOTHER 30 - 50 years or so because the government are getting highly inaccurate statistics of the problems, grossly under-reported problems, and we can't wait for 50 YEARS for something that really needs to be done when it needs to be done now, basically, so that's my mission.
So my issue is that I struggle to think in an entreprenurial sort of way, I wasn't born with the entrepreneurial blood flowing within my veins so this is a bit of a disadvantage, possibly. My brother's the complete opposite as he's done so many awesome entrepreneurial things since he was about 12, making a profit on foreign exchange, even making a profit from selling second hand DVDs and light bulbs.... he is totally hilarious! I have zero history-inclination of being entrepreneurial. But I will basically put crocodiles into songs, having amused Parliament and got telephone calls from Parliamentary employees to tell me that my songs are entertaining, ...
I hear a few stories about people with anti-social personality disorders eating pencils which is weird so I can go and put that into songs too.
It's not technically complicated to make songs, I grab a guitarist, write the songs, get someone to compose, record... But I think I need to be cleverer than paying someone 50 - 60 pounds each time I do something (which then becomes a financial burden) and if I seek PARTNERS there are trust issues and I want to be autonomous- I want to have complete control of the material and make sure I will be able to get it out and make sure I will be using it to help people without hindrance. There will also be important music marketing plans in the (much) later stage, 14/ 15 yr olds don't mind being able to listen to a few FREE songs on the internet to amuse themselves when they're actually getting educated more than when teachers tell them not to smoke; so how do the business plans work, this will be important as well at a later stage; ;
There're people who've got more musicianship than I have but I am able to identify a need from reading so many psychology, psychiatry and sociology books that it has made me sick, so combined with my own compassion I've formulated a manifesto.- -.... I think this is Okay and I do not need to feel I am inferior to those concert pianists or something. They do other things that I cannot do, and it is not as if they are determined to cut a lot of crap in the next 50 years to help a lot of people now or close to now, and I certainly do not want to wait for another 125 years. There are reasons why blocks of 125 years are conceptualized but never mind that, really. There isn't particularly any time for me to wait for people to suffer in the next 50 years and instead of me sitting around wondering if I can do something about it I should just go and do it... there is nothing to lose and my 'business enterprise' does not require any capital investment. It's not as if it's possible to lose a chunk of money.
So I don't know how I'll really get on in the later stages, but I'll need to refrain from making any financial / business arrangements that don't make so much sense and I'll need to formulate business plans and business relationships that make the optimum amount of sense so at some point this may become a bit of a struggle for me because the entrepreneurial blood is not flowing within me....
It might work to pay some fees for music production out of my salary a couple of times and sign the copyright legal paperwork, but it might emerge that there is a cleverer way of doing things,
Do you understand what I am saying??? Not matter what I've got to make the decisions that are good and not hide in my own non-entrepreneurial shell...
Ahhh so I may need to call you for business advice, which is just so ironic to have a 26-year-old calling a SIXTEEN-year-old for business advice and business strategy recommendations!! hahahahahaha....
It's still ever so easy to make you a co-director of a British-registered company, I just sign a name on a piece of paper... lol lol lol lol. nnnnnaaaaahhhhh, I would not want to ruin your life with a bit of a history of political activism, even though I can detach all upcoming activities from it, and I am sure your HOMEWORK at school is more important than running a company and being a director, isn't it? lol lol.
Business advice! Business Advice!!! Business plans!! Oh the company directorship conferences and meetings! ah...
Lula xxxxxx
Hellooooooo!! Hope your teachers are supportive of you (they seem to have a history of being unsupportive) and that you haven't been playing too much monopoly lately.. hehe
I was meant to email you earlier but didn't have the time... so are you still watching 'Dragon's Den', and what have you learnt from it?? I vaguely looked at it, wow it's so tough to be an entrepreneur, in a way it's a bit dirty really... a few attacks here and there... I guess that is necessary because the entrepreneurial world is highly demanding...
As I registered a company in my name in the middle of last year no. 696**** I got bullied the hell out of doing anything much really being a public sector employee at the time, what a shame...
but now that I'm in the Asia-Pacific Region I think I probably need to register it as a 'foreign' business and run all the business accounts from here. Aaahhh if I was a qualified accountant and bookeeper, I could do it all myself and wouldn't need to pay someone to do it- heheheh...
Something on the side...
I basically want to commission a whole load of music that educate the public about basic neuroscience facts, mainly to educate people about anti-social personality disorder... there are about 10 different personality disorders and I think I'll concentrate on 2-3. I have identified a gap in the 'MARKET' because this is something that really needs to be done but journalists won't be talking about it in the newspapers and magazines for fear of bankruptcy-inducing 100,000 pounds defamation lawsuits (which is a bit of a complicated story), teachers should tell you about this stuff now at school when they tell you all about the anaroexia etc. but this sort of thing won't happen for ANOTHER 30 - 50 years or so because the government are getting highly inaccurate statistics of the problems, grossly under-reported problems, and we can't wait for 50 YEARS for something that really needs to be done when it needs to be done now, basically, so that's my mission.
So my issue is that I struggle to think in an entreprenurial sort of way, I wasn't born with the entrepreneurial blood flowing within my veins so this is a bit of a disadvantage, possibly. My brother's the complete opposite as he's done so many awesome entrepreneurial things since he was about 12, making a profit on foreign exchange, even making a profit from selling second hand DVDs and light bulbs.... he is totally hilarious! I have zero history-inclination of being entrepreneurial. But I will basically put crocodiles into songs, having amused Parliament and got telephone calls from Parliamentary employees to tell me that my songs are entertaining, ...
I hear a few stories about people with anti-social personality disorders eating pencils which is weird so I can go and put that into songs too.
It's not technically complicated to make songs, I grab a guitarist, write the songs, get someone to compose, record... But I think I need to be cleverer than paying someone 50 - 60 pounds each time I do something (which then becomes a financial burden) and if I seek PARTNERS there are trust issues and I want to be autonomous- I want to have complete control of the material and make sure I will be able to get it out and make sure I will be using it to help people without hindrance. There will also be important music marketing plans in the (much) later stage, 14/ 15 yr olds don't mind being able to listen to a few FREE songs on the internet to amuse themselves when they're actually getting educated more than when teachers tell them not to smoke; so how do the business plans work, this will be important as well at a later stage; ;
There're people who've got more musicianship than I have but I am able to identify a need from reading so many psychology, psychiatry and sociology books that it has made me sick, so combined with my own compassion I've formulated a manifesto.- -.... I think this is Okay and I do not need to feel I am inferior to those concert pianists or something. They do other things that I cannot do, and it is not as if they are determined to cut a lot of crap in the next 50 years to help a lot of people now or close to now, and I certainly do not want to wait for another 125 years. There are reasons why blocks of 125 years are conceptualized but never mind that, really. There isn't particularly any time for me to wait for people to suffer in the next 50 years and instead of me sitting around wondering if I can do something about it I should just go and do it... there is nothing to lose and my 'business enterprise' does not require any capital investment. It's not as if it's possible to lose a chunk of money.
So I don't know how I'll really get on in the later stages, but I'll need to refrain from making any financial / business arrangements that don't make so much sense and I'll need to formulate business plans and business relationships that make the optimum amount of sense so at some point this may become a bit of a struggle for me because the entrepreneurial blood is not flowing within me....
It might work to pay some fees for music production out of my salary a couple of times and sign the copyright legal paperwork, but it might emerge that there is a cleverer way of doing things,
Do you understand what I am saying??? Not matter what I've got to make the decisions that are good and not hide in my own non-entrepreneurial shell...
Ahhh so I may need to call you for business advice, which is just so ironic to have a 26-year-old calling a SIXTEEN-year-old for business advice and business strategy recommendations!! hahahahahaha....
It's still ever so easy to make you a co-director of a British-registered company, I just sign a name on a piece of paper... lol lol lol lol. nnnnnaaaaahhhhh, I would not want to ruin your life with a bit of a history of political activism, even though I can detach all upcoming activities from it, and I am sure your HOMEWORK at school is more important than running a company and being a director, isn't it? lol lol.
Business advice! Business Advice!!! Business plans!! Oh the company directorship conferences and meetings! ah...
Lula xxxxxx
Monday 8 March 2010
Celebrities and anti-social personality disorder
So, there're a number of celebrities I could target with the issue of anti-social personality disorder, best to target the philanthropic ones as they are the most likely to respond:
Here's a quick mental list:
Here's a quick mental list:
- Arnold Schwarzenneggar (he's in action movies ie. VIOLENT movies- wow that is so perfect! And he seems to be very philanthropic and adorable- very helpful!)
- Natalie Portman (she actually has a psychology degree!!!!!!!)
- Bradd Pitt
- Angelina Jolie
- ..... any other suggestions??
If I write literally thousands of letters to the celebrities, maybe they will have to write about this in the media somewhere... crazy girl decided to keep writing to celebrities all the time. Essentially I'll be saying 'come help raise awareness!!!!!!!!!'
Tuesday 2 March 2010
boyfriend-girlfriend holiday
When I was at university, I went away for some Christian teaching weekends which included foodie, table football, maybe a bit of table tennis, bible seminars, more bible studies and some Christian socializing.
I do remember a 'relationship seminar' when Dan and Suzie talked about their recommendations- ... the point of starting an 'exclusive male-female relationship' as Christians call it is for marriage. It's an intimate thing that's heading towards marriage. In popular spheres, there can be disagreements with this like I remember an 18-yr-old friend who said 'what?? Marriage??? If you want to break up with your boyfriend, tell him you're going to marry him!' which makes the point that this can be freaky. But on the whole I agree with the Christian 'directors' because I generally believe that if there is no chance in the world that I'm going to marry the man I'm dating, it's a complete waste of my time.
I have some thoughts on some other things that they 'recommended' to me, however. About HOLIDAYS, they recommend that the boyfriend-girlfriend pairs DO NOT GO ON HOLIDAY DURING THEIR RELATIONSHIP as it subjects them to sexual temptation. This goes along with a list of other recommendations like if the pair of them are in a room in a university hall of residence, leave the door open, etc.
However, in the light of my direct experience of a severely disordered person, who had severe anti-social personality disorder without any sign revealing it for so long, and by the way the Christian reaction to all this has been dreadful on the whole, I am actually recommending that the couple goes on holiday together- for example, from Britain to Italy, from Britain to Russia, whatever that takes their fancy.
My recommendation is based upon how if a couple go on holiday together, they can perform a passport security check and establish each other's identity. That means, if I'm the girlfriend, I can confirm my boyfriend's name, date of birth, and his address should be written at the back, along with details about his next of kin. I know this sounds really ridiculous, paranoid and stupid, but, I think if the couple don't want to have sex they can go and have a holiday without having sex in the hotel room and return with nice memories, they should be autonomous human beings capable of deciding whether they're going to have sex or not, and also, in the normal processes of socialization people don't check their friends' identity by saying 'oy, show me your passport, is your name really your name? Is your age really your age?' Come on, that's just ridiculous.
But, sociopaths seem to be really the same as everyone else, and victims tend not to know what the hell is going on until it's all too late. It's so difficult to distinguish them and tell them apart that even Ph.D qualified psychologists such as Dr. Robert Hare fail to identify them in their day-to-day lives. They can identify the disordered persons that they study at work, but the fail to identify the disordered persons in their own private lives so they still fall victim and get conned.
In the normal processes of socialization, I just can't think of another opportunity to check the boyfriend/ girlfriend's identity apart from having to go pass the airport with a valid passport. And if the sociopath is a criminal that's being pursued, that comes out as well. Miss Sandra Boss, the corporate superwoman, was married to 'Clark Rockefeller' for over 12 years or so but her husband gave her a fake name and she didn't know and she never saw his passport or medical records until everything was all too late. I got as far as seeing the damn sociopath's Barclays Bank Card, it had his first initial and surname on it. But he lied to me and over 30 people about his date of birth, age, home address, family situation, he even gave the Church and people from the church a false forename for years and years and years that began with the same letter as his 'real' forename- how real is that forename? As real as it is in the criminal court because he got multiple criminal convictions, so I found out (which shocked me a lot).
Call me paranoid but there's about a 4% chance that a passport check will reveal worrying results and a 96% chance that a passport check will reveal normal, satisfactory results. This means that, for example, let's say you're a woman and you'll date some men in your twenties, thirties and forties, maybe you marry when you're 41, there is a high mathematical chance that you will encounter one male partner who has anti-social personality disorder (there's some chance that your men can have all sorts of problems too, looking at the figures; never mind, there's happiness to be had) and this is something that is very difficult to tell. You'll know if your man needs heart surgery, but you probably can't tell if he is personality disordered with ASPD. So, to beat the processes of socialization, I'm now recommending that- lovers go on holiday together because while they look forward to it and it's probably going to be lots of fun, just in case the relationship is not right at all, the passport will tell you. Don't always bother with the 'I love you': read his or her passport, it's usually 'his' because for every 1 female sociopath there're about 7 or 8 male sociopaths.
I think ultimately these recommendations about what to do when in a relationship should be delivered based on population statistics, facts and figures, trends in the population, etc. and to an extent, what type of partner one is likely to accept. While it's nice to aim for a prosperous life that doesn't succumb to temptation, people can't always go ahead to recommend actions based on very abstract principles. We don't live in an abstract world, we live in a world that is often very practical. And the Christian directors of Christian weekends certainly did not manage to warn me of some dangers in the world that I didn't know existed, or what to do about it.
And I'm still not impressed that Christians in general actively discouraged me from reading the sociology books and psychology books that explained problems to me (along with all the legal texts). Some of them even said, 'just read the bible and don't read those things', but there are some very SPECIFIC things about the condition of anti-social personality disorder that the bible could not possibly have told me and I relied on such information to recover. Like I've said since quite a long time ago, it puts me off when Christians leave things to God that should not be left to God (like what they can command socially, whether they have the social skills to pull social interactions and emotional bonds between people together). Fundamentally I don't think it WORKS to make-believe, to say that my traumatized self is fine because I have God when I'm really not fine, and as I identified the lack of short-cuts in recovering from the horrendously nightmarish experiences of a sociopath, I feel really really put off that some people basically want to shove me the bible and make a short-cut that doesn't actually work. That's not the correct use of the bible, and they've also discouraged me from pursuing actions that ultimately can achieve very benign things for large numbers of victims without being discerning enough to see how those things will be achieved- I don't want to talk about the details. Sometimes people don't want to think about problem-solving. I'm not one of those people.
Basically, Professor Simon Wessely would hate how the Christians treated me in this.
Anyway - Go on holiday and read the other passport (not yours) !!!!!!!!! Have a nice holiday!!!
I do remember a 'relationship seminar' when Dan and Suzie talked about their recommendations- ... the point of starting an 'exclusive male-female relationship' as Christians call it is for marriage. It's an intimate thing that's heading towards marriage. In popular spheres, there can be disagreements with this like I remember an 18-yr-old friend who said 'what?? Marriage??? If you want to break up with your boyfriend, tell him you're going to marry him!' which makes the point that this can be freaky. But on the whole I agree with the Christian 'directors' because I generally believe that if there is no chance in the world that I'm going to marry the man I'm dating, it's a complete waste of my time.
I have some thoughts on some other things that they 'recommended' to me, however. About HOLIDAYS, they recommend that the boyfriend-girlfriend pairs DO NOT GO ON HOLIDAY DURING THEIR RELATIONSHIP as it subjects them to sexual temptation. This goes along with a list of other recommendations like if the pair of them are in a room in a university hall of residence, leave the door open, etc.
However, in the light of my direct experience of a severely disordered person, who had severe anti-social personality disorder without any sign revealing it for so long, and by the way the Christian reaction to all this has been dreadful on the whole, I am actually recommending that the couple goes on holiday together- for example, from Britain to Italy, from Britain to Russia, whatever that takes their fancy.
My recommendation is based upon how if a couple go on holiday together, they can perform a passport security check and establish each other's identity. That means, if I'm the girlfriend, I can confirm my boyfriend's name, date of birth, and his address should be written at the back, along with details about his next of kin. I know this sounds really ridiculous, paranoid and stupid, but, I think if the couple don't want to have sex they can go and have a holiday without having sex in the hotel room and return with nice memories, they should be autonomous human beings capable of deciding whether they're going to have sex or not, and also, in the normal processes of socialization people don't check their friends' identity by saying 'oy, show me your passport, is your name really your name? Is your age really your age?' Come on, that's just ridiculous.
But, sociopaths seem to be really the same as everyone else, and victims tend not to know what the hell is going on until it's all too late. It's so difficult to distinguish them and tell them apart that even Ph.D qualified psychologists such as Dr. Robert Hare fail to identify them in their day-to-day lives. They can identify the disordered persons that they study at work, but the fail to identify the disordered persons in their own private lives so they still fall victim and get conned.
In the normal processes of socialization, I just can't think of another opportunity to check the boyfriend/ girlfriend's identity apart from having to go pass the airport with a valid passport. And if the sociopath is a criminal that's being pursued, that comes out as well. Miss Sandra Boss, the corporate superwoman, was married to 'Clark Rockefeller' for over 12 years or so but her husband gave her a fake name and she didn't know and she never saw his passport or medical records until everything was all too late. I got as far as seeing the damn sociopath's Barclays Bank Card, it had his first initial and surname on it. But he lied to me and over 30 people about his date of birth, age, home address, family situation, he even gave the Church and people from the church a false forename for years and years and years that began with the same letter as his 'real' forename- how real is that forename? As real as it is in the criminal court because he got multiple criminal convictions, so I found out (which shocked me a lot).
Call me paranoid but there's about a 4% chance that a passport check will reveal worrying results and a 96% chance that a passport check will reveal normal, satisfactory results. This means that, for example, let's say you're a woman and you'll date some men in your twenties, thirties and forties, maybe you marry when you're 41, there is a high mathematical chance that you will encounter one male partner who has anti-social personality disorder (there's some chance that your men can have all sorts of problems too, looking at the figures; never mind, there's happiness to be had) and this is something that is very difficult to tell. You'll know if your man needs heart surgery, but you probably can't tell if he is personality disordered with ASPD. So, to beat the processes of socialization, I'm now recommending that- lovers go on holiday together because while they look forward to it and it's probably going to be lots of fun, just in case the relationship is not right at all, the passport will tell you. Don't always bother with the 'I love you': read his or her passport, it's usually 'his' because for every 1 female sociopath there're about 7 or 8 male sociopaths.
I think ultimately these recommendations about what to do when in a relationship should be delivered based on population statistics, facts and figures, trends in the population, etc. and to an extent, what type of partner one is likely to accept. While it's nice to aim for a prosperous life that doesn't succumb to temptation, people can't always go ahead to recommend actions based on very abstract principles. We don't live in an abstract world, we live in a world that is often very practical. And the Christian directors of Christian weekends certainly did not manage to warn me of some dangers in the world that I didn't know existed, or what to do about it.
And I'm still not impressed that Christians in general actively discouraged me from reading the sociology books and psychology books that explained problems to me (along with all the legal texts). Some of them even said, 'just read the bible and don't read those things', but there are some very SPECIFIC things about the condition of anti-social personality disorder that the bible could not possibly have told me and I relied on such information to recover. Like I've said since quite a long time ago, it puts me off when Christians leave things to God that should not be left to God (like what they can command socially, whether they have the social skills to pull social interactions and emotional bonds between people together). Fundamentally I don't think it WORKS to make-believe, to say that my traumatized self is fine because I have God when I'm really not fine, and as I identified the lack of short-cuts in recovering from the horrendously nightmarish experiences of a sociopath, I feel really really put off that some people basically want to shove me the bible and make a short-cut that doesn't actually work. That's not the correct use of the bible, and they've also discouraged me from pursuing actions that ultimately can achieve very benign things for large numbers of victims without being discerning enough to see how those things will be achieved- I don't want to talk about the details. Sometimes people don't want to think about problem-solving. I'm not one of those people.
Basically, Professor Simon Wessely would hate how the Christians treated me in this.
Anyway - Go on holiday and read the other passport (not yours) !!!!!!!!! Have a nice holiday!!!
Friday 26 February 2010
Legal Insurance, anti-bankruptcy
I am ringing round town...... am I turning the country upside down again? Looking for legal insurance this time. After some provisional homework, oh it's called after-the-event legal insurance. So, with all the rape by fraud, I've called the firms 'The Judge' and 'Temple' with the private prosecution proposal and folks have said they straightforwardly don't do criminal cases. Among the hideous load of things, it's a possible cost order against me that I'm worried about, and I'm trying to get something that will shield me against that. But I thought it wouldn't necessarily matter to the insurance company that I lose so long as there isn't a cost order, and I thought I'd only get a cost order if I've done something inappropriate in the legal proceedings, which I don't plan to do?? .. These things are too complicated for me.
I will need to ring round more. Dooohhhhh....
I will need to ring round more. Dooohhhhh....
Calling all talented actors!!!!!!!!!!!
Dear Ad/ Ed
Hiiiiiii….. Oh wow I hope the toys at home and all you users of them are well. Wow, will you ever manage to get rid of me???!?!?!? Your giggly ex-lodger.
Don’t worry, this time I’m talking about acting, not websites. Well. My strange Charity builder self has a few bold proposals and ideas and action plans. Among loads of things, I know our new charity ‘Fraud Do Us Part’ will have some film-making activities, I think the world greatly needs both state-commissioned documentary-making endeavours and smaller, more dynamic, more informal film-making efforts. This is the factual, narrative, analytical, research-based set of work, but I also have some other thoughts and ideas that are more creative, this should complement the analysis.
I believe the contents about issues in interpersonal relationships can be approached from a different angle. As a victim who randomly had my life turned upside down by someone with anti-social personality disorder, I think there are aspects of this serious health problem that can be combined with artistic drama to fulfil both educational goals and generate admirable inspiration and stimulation.
What I am thinking of is that, for instance, I can take the pathological lying of the anti-social personality disorder and have drama formulated with this issue, perhaps a monologue or a dualogue with the theme of deception. Surely that can be very awesome?? Okay I was at the Cheltenham Ladies’ College and when I was seventeen I did obtain a grade 7 in drama- acting, I don’t know what the hell that means. Apparently I was a smashing actress, I believe that as I really admired the teacher and thought she was a great person, anyway, I wasn’t until I was older and more mature that I developed a real love of drama and threatre. Anyway, anyway! I won’t be doing any acting myself but I think it could be a very interesting exercise to write a piece of drama on the theme of lying and deception, make it interesting, have talented and well trained actors like you, Gemma, your friends, etc to act it out – have it lying around somewhere on the internet etc. and it can only benefit you as you send your acting portfolio to people in the industry anyway, don’t you? Also, it’s a piece of drama work on deception, it makes no connection with anyone’s case whether that involves legal proceedings or not. It makes some references to very broad trends, millions of people, social science data, the bigger picture… so it shouldn’t make life particularly difficult for the persons who get involved with such drama projects.
Aren’t you fed up with having spent 8 hours sometimes on putting your portfolio together only to never hear from the industry peeps again and never get called to an audition? What a waste of time……. Oops sorry. So then I just wonder how the financial accounts of projects relating to drama scripts and acting and shooting of the acting can potentially work. Well I know film makers from St Helen’s Church who do some projects for free sometimes to get themselves noticed. I don’t like the principle of asking anyone to do things for free, it seems to be a crazy idea but then people sometimes want profit share instead of standard wages anyway and it’s more like actors and drama writers are welcome to use the scientific knowledge that I now have in my head to write some scripts as a creative exploration of deception. We don’t want to make jokes about things that are so serious and devastating that aren’t funny, but I think it’s interesting that drama is not real life and it’s a mode of engagement that allows us to explore real life itself, look at it from different perspectives- like ‘Love Actually’ has fantastic acting in it that stimulates my thoughts about real life itself.
I don’t want to go on and on and on about this in a letter as it’s provisional scribbling, and I haven’t a clue what you think about this idea!!!! But I just believe the pair of you and your Guildhall graduate friends etc. are more than capable of writing really interesting drama scripts with the proposed theme of deception. In the past year or so, I’ve read so many sociology books, psychology books, physiology/ medicine/ psychiatry books that it makes me sick. Sick sick sick… of course all the law books… but I know a lot now. I still talk to my Member of Parliament Right Honourable **MP more often that I talk to my friends.
So with this body of stuff, do you think you can benefit from all the grief that I’ve submitted to Gordon Brown and all that and… to what extent would it help you and get you ahead to leave a really charming piece of acting lying around somewhere that can only really be highly regarded by actors and drama professionals, and that can get you acting roles in the future? I don’t know whether you really care about taking major roles in film, Love Actually didn’t give you a chance did they! Well we all sort of know that the world is heading towards social media on many fronts, I’ve gone to enough work fairs to have picked up messages, we no longer really rely on the BBC, Channel Four etc. to get a lot of things done… I don’t even think that the sort of project I loosely have in mind even costs any money particularly! Think about it: 1) script-writing with a bit of consultation of medical books, but just working on deception issues will do 2) act it and practise acting it out, would be lots of fun 3) grab a video camera that you probably already have upstairs anyway and get it shot- will be of high enough quality, (N) so this can only benefit you and not harm you, plus you can potentially save many lives by engaging their attention… Why don’t you put yourself on the track of becoming a Jude-Law like world-famous actor? And Gemma? Mind you it may be a pain in the ass to be famous and stalked all the time? Well for instance Jude Law stimulates me and lots of other people a lot somewhat at his expense but at the same time he’s loaded too so I guess it can’t be that bad…
I would be happy to advise on many very pertinent issues relating to the ‘central’ issue of deception… all the things to be explored and said. And by the way, as a victim, all of the PhD qualified experts said it was not my fault that I got fucked over by a sociopath!! Drama doesn’t need to be painful.
Well, in the world of media and drama, people are constantly networking their pants off – it’s all a matter of being as proactive as possible! So I guess when something’s worth pursuing, it’s best to go and do it rather than spend time wondering whether I should do it or not. There’s no harm in me making a similar proposal to actors out there, but then to start from scratch, I don’t know them, might they be freaks?
To tell you a bit about my company no. (been bullied the hell out of doing anything much as I’ve been a public sector employee), I want to commission music and artty illustrations to convey scientific facts about neuroscience…. Pathological narcissism and anti-social personality disorder, it might not do any harm to move nextdoors a bit to look at borderline personality disorder, which is also a huge health problem. As a matter of problem solving, it’s extremely important to try to get the message out with popular entertainment as traditional methods face enormous difficulties. School teachers should teach this stuff to seventeen-year-olds but then they don’t. The government doesn’t get enough data to prove that it’s a very serious problem and that’s because many victims die so it’s a grossly under-reported, under-submitted problem. Without concrete information and case studies, there won’t be proposals to boards of education… As for the media, there are huge legal difficulties in writing real case studies, most of the time that’s impossible. There aren’t nearly enough newspaper articles about the problem or nearly enough magazine articles on the problem…. The average person in the population is very under-protected as a result. And of course it costs the state 31,240 pounds per sociopath per year, court costs etc. If traditional means won’t save lives then popular entertainment will, gracefully… As a survivor, what I aim to do is to protect and entertain people at the same time.
Right! So are you seduced by the proposal to make drama with the theme of deception? Are you persuaded that it can only be a good thing? The anti-social PD afflicted persons use and manipulate…. You - use and not manipulate…
Ahhhhh- I don’t have any toys to play with! Haven’t played board games with Christians for a while but I probably didn’t really want to hang around them as they are extremely unkind to victims of sexual offences. Board games are kinda more fun than drinking alcohol though, potentially speaking. Oh and I didn’t realise working as a police officer would mean having the force spying my pants off me and my private life, what a nightmare. I have no human rights at all, really, I almost have to tell them what I think about while having a piss in the toilet at home, it’s ridiculous,
That’s that, so, HAPPY ACTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[signed with real name]
Hiiiiiii….. Oh wow I hope the toys at home and all you users of them are well. Wow, will you ever manage to get rid of me???!?!?!? Your giggly ex-lodger.
Don’t worry, this time I’m talking about acting, not websites. Well. My strange Charity builder self has a few bold proposals and ideas and action plans. Among loads of things, I know our new charity ‘Fraud Do Us Part’ will have some film-making activities, I think the world greatly needs both state-commissioned documentary-making endeavours and smaller, more dynamic, more informal film-making efforts. This is the factual, narrative, analytical, research-based set of work, but I also have some other thoughts and ideas that are more creative, this should complement the analysis.
I believe the contents about issues in interpersonal relationships can be approached from a different angle. As a victim who randomly had my life turned upside down by someone with anti-social personality disorder, I think there are aspects of this serious health problem that can be combined with artistic drama to fulfil both educational goals and generate admirable inspiration and stimulation.
What I am thinking of is that, for instance, I can take the pathological lying of the anti-social personality disorder and have drama formulated with this issue, perhaps a monologue or a dualogue with the theme of deception. Surely that can be very awesome?? Okay I was at the Cheltenham Ladies’ College and when I was seventeen I did obtain a grade 7 in drama- acting, I don’t know what the hell that means. Apparently I was a smashing actress, I believe that as I really admired the teacher and thought she was a great person, anyway, I wasn’t until I was older and more mature that I developed a real love of drama and threatre. Anyway, anyway! I won’t be doing any acting myself but I think it could be a very interesting exercise to write a piece of drama on the theme of lying and deception, make it interesting, have talented and well trained actors like you, Gemma, your friends, etc to act it out – have it lying around somewhere on the internet etc. and it can only benefit you as you send your acting portfolio to people in the industry anyway, don’t you? Also, it’s a piece of drama work on deception, it makes no connection with anyone’s case whether that involves legal proceedings or not. It makes some references to very broad trends, millions of people, social science data, the bigger picture… so it shouldn’t make life particularly difficult for the persons who get involved with such drama projects.
Aren’t you fed up with having spent 8 hours sometimes on putting your portfolio together only to never hear from the industry peeps again and never get called to an audition? What a waste of time……. Oops sorry. So then I just wonder how the financial accounts of projects relating to drama scripts and acting and shooting of the acting can potentially work. Well I know film makers from St Helen’s Church who do some projects for free sometimes to get themselves noticed. I don’t like the principle of asking anyone to do things for free, it seems to be a crazy idea but then people sometimes want profit share instead of standard wages anyway and it’s more like actors and drama writers are welcome to use the scientific knowledge that I now have in my head to write some scripts as a creative exploration of deception. We don’t want to make jokes about things that are so serious and devastating that aren’t funny, but I think it’s interesting that drama is not real life and it’s a mode of engagement that allows us to explore real life itself, look at it from different perspectives- like ‘Love Actually’ has fantastic acting in it that stimulates my thoughts about real life itself.
I don’t want to go on and on and on about this in a letter as it’s provisional scribbling, and I haven’t a clue what you think about this idea!!!! But I just believe the pair of you and your Guildhall graduate friends etc. are more than capable of writing really interesting drama scripts with the proposed theme of deception. In the past year or so, I’ve read so many sociology books, psychology books, physiology/ medicine/ psychiatry books that it makes me sick. Sick sick sick… of course all the law books… but I know a lot now. I still talk to my Member of Parliament Right Honourable **MP more often that I talk to my friends.
So with this body of stuff, do you think you can benefit from all the grief that I’ve submitted to Gordon Brown and all that and… to what extent would it help you and get you ahead to leave a really charming piece of acting lying around somewhere that can only really be highly regarded by actors and drama professionals, and that can get you acting roles in the future? I don’t know whether you really care about taking major roles in film, Love Actually didn’t give you a chance did they! Well we all sort of know that the world is heading towards social media on many fronts, I’ve gone to enough work fairs to have picked up messages, we no longer really rely on the BBC, Channel Four etc. to get a lot of things done… I don’t even think that the sort of project I loosely have in mind even costs any money particularly! Think about it: 1) script-writing with a bit of consultation of medical books, but just working on deception issues will do 2) act it and practise acting it out, would be lots of fun 3) grab a video camera that you probably already have upstairs anyway and get it shot- will be of high enough quality, (N) so this can only benefit you and not harm you, plus you can potentially save many lives by engaging their attention… Why don’t you put yourself on the track of becoming a Jude-Law like world-famous actor? And Gemma? Mind you it may be a pain in the ass to be famous and stalked all the time? Well for instance Jude Law stimulates me and lots of other people a lot somewhat at his expense but at the same time he’s loaded too so I guess it can’t be that bad…
I would be happy to advise on many very pertinent issues relating to the ‘central’ issue of deception… all the things to be explored and said. And by the way, as a victim, all of the PhD qualified experts said it was not my fault that I got fucked over by a sociopath!! Drama doesn’t need to be painful.
Well, in the world of media and drama, people are constantly networking their pants off – it’s all a matter of being as proactive as possible! So I guess when something’s worth pursuing, it’s best to go and do it rather than spend time wondering whether I should do it or not. There’s no harm in me making a similar proposal to actors out there, but then to start from scratch, I don’t know them, might they be freaks?
To tell you a bit about my company no. (been bullied the hell out of doing anything much as I’ve been a public sector employee), I want to commission music and artty illustrations to convey scientific facts about neuroscience…. Pathological narcissism and anti-social personality disorder, it might not do any harm to move nextdoors a bit to look at borderline personality disorder, which is also a huge health problem. As a matter of problem solving, it’s extremely important to try to get the message out with popular entertainment as traditional methods face enormous difficulties. School teachers should teach this stuff to seventeen-year-olds but then they don’t. The government doesn’t get enough data to prove that it’s a very serious problem and that’s because many victims die so it’s a grossly under-reported, under-submitted problem. Without concrete information and case studies, there won’t be proposals to boards of education… As for the media, there are huge legal difficulties in writing real case studies, most of the time that’s impossible. There aren’t nearly enough newspaper articles about the problem or nearly enough magazine articles on the problem…. The average person in the population is very under-protected as a result. And of course it costs the state 31,240 pounds per sociopath per year, court costs etc. If traditional means won’t save lives then popular entertainment will, gracefully… As a survivor, what I aim to do is to protect and entertain people at the same time.
Right! So are you seduced by the proposal to make drama with the theme of deception? Are you persuaded that it can only be a good thing? The anti-social PD afflicted persons use and manipulate…. You - use and not manipulate…
Ahhhhh- I don’t have any toys to play with! Haven’t played board games with Christians for a while but I probably didn’t really want to hang around them as they are extremely unkind to victims of sexual offences. Board games are kinda more fun than drinking alcohol though, potentially speaking. Oh and I didn’t realise working as a police officer would mean having the force spying my pants off me and my private life, what a nightmare. I have no human rights at all, really, I almost have to tell them what I think about while having a piss in the toilet at home, it’s ridiculous,
That’s that, so, HAPPY ACTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[signed with real name]
Wednesday 24 February 2010
DSM 5
So, I filled out a questionnaire for American Research as they are in the process of figuring out the DSM 5. I have read all of the DSM 4 from back-to-front inside-out: Diagnostic Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Fourth Edition. From the responses it is fairly clear that I did not realise something was seriously wrong until over half a year down the line.
Who should be giving to charity?
I did it... actually had a go at a charity-affliated person today saying she should do charity to me, not the other way round. That was some kind of an old person's charity. So in the past two days there's been the animal charity and the old people's charity. At the end of the day my issue is really really not that not enough people give money to charity, but I do have an issue with how I have super-zealously devoted myself to helping victims / 'prospective' victims with insufficient assistance... so now animals have paired up with the human victims, sociopaths cut up all of them- they cut up frogs' legs, set fire to cats, dig out goldfish eyeballs, do any number of things to animals that I don't want to think about, and annihilate the old people by stealing all of their money. I have been grossly under-assisted at times and I want to take the pain of the victims with me to change that into something else but... okay these people standing in the street, they should be doing charity to me to be doing charity to others, I don't want to give money to problems on the surface when I have known and seen problems that go much deeper than whether an old person is without shelter... well WHY is this person without shelter in the first place?... it would be nice if they halt banging on about all the really obvious problems just for a little moment and start thinking about the subtle yet huge problems. Oh crap, I forgot, victims of sociopaths tend to die before they can report their problems to other people.
The fact is, many people are dying in the cruellest, most tortuous circumstances all the time because of personality-disordered sociopaths. It would be encouraging to be able to tackle this problem gracefully.
Being resentful doesn't even help me to think straight...
(I have actually volunteered for WRVS which is an old people's charity, that's not in the old people's division though it was in the emergency division, and it was pretty much a matter of self-interest that I got myself into that role as it would build up my work experience.)
Resentful... I can't think straight sometimes, it's so unlike me.
The fact is, many people are dying in the cruellest, most tortuous circumstances all the time because of personality-disordered sociopaths. It would be encouraging to be able to tackle this problem gracefully.
Being resentful doesn't even help me to think straight...
(I have actually volunteered for WRVS which is an old people's charity, that's not in the old people's division though it was in the emergency division, and it was pretty much a matter of self-interest that I got myself into that role as it would build up my work experience.)
Resentful... I can't think straight sometimes, it's so unlike me.
Monday 22 February 2010
Resentful
I think I am turning into a weird bitch. I was going to the underground station a few days ago when there was some charitable sale of flowers, ₤ 4.50 a bunch, quite pretty, oh they are for CHARITY. At first I did not realise they were charitable, but then somehow for them to mention charity this became quite a sensitive issue. There was something within me that wanted me to say to the guy out loud, 'How dare you ask me to do charity? I have done so much charity that I am sick (not sick of it, but physically sick) and risked all my life and in the absence of ₤300,000 in my pocket I am in desperate need of a lawyer, do you know how much suffering there has been in the past 125 years and beyond and how much suffering will be reduced in the next 125 years if only I get a ₤300,000 -yet-free lawyer?'
Next time I really might kick off an awkard conversation saying- YOU SHOULD DO CHARITY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT THE OTHER WAY ROUND!!!!!!! I LOOK FINE BUT HAVE YOU ANY IDEA HOW MUCH I AM VICTIMISED!!!
Oh dear, with the resentment I am slightly mentally imbalanced.
Next time I really might kick off an awkard conversation saying- YOU SHOULD DO CHARITY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT THE OTHER WAY ROUND!!!!!!! I LOOK FINE BUT HAVE YOU ANY IDEA HOW MUCH I AM VICTIMISED!!!
Oh dear, with the resentment I am slightly mentally imbalanced.
Saturday 20 February 2010
The Charity Commission is pathetic I am unimpressed
I feel very unimpressed with the Charity Commission in the UK, their employees get their salaries but then I end up having to do their jobs for them and having to tell them that if they don't their jobs I will involve Parliament. See below.
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Dear Charity Commission caseworker,
I am now formally replying to your email of 23 October 2009 regarding a serious incident. Unfortunately Charity Commission employees have not done their jobs so I have had to do your work for you.
Firstly, according to the facts released from the Freedom of Information Act request, you say that no serious incident report was filed on [the registered charity in London] last summer, their trading address being on ___ _____ London.
Thus, I must point to your definition of what a serious incident is as far as the Charity Commission is concerned. An incident / string of events that has taken place in a charity is considered as serious if it has resulted in a significant loss of funds. An incident is considered to be serious if it poses a significant risk/ amount of difficulty to the charity’s work. An incident is considered to be serious if it causes serious injury to the reputation of the charity.
To give you some plain facts, because [the charity] employed the grossly dishonest Mr ____ until ____ of 2009 and I reported his dishonest activities very extensively, this damaged the reputation of [the charity that employed him] very significantly. I have the documents to prove that even [the charity itself] considered its reputation to be seriously damaged. The same documents indicate this difficulty significantly interfered with its work as a registered educational charity to ___ , and from looking at their brochures I could also see that they lost a lot of sponsorship money and lost the support of a number of respectable organizations. Logos that would normally be there were missing. I know that I informed 800+......
You really must understand that ... (a paragraph is omitted on this blog), By definition this is a serious incident because a serious incident is something that ‘threatens the work of the charity’.
You must now read the 2 documents that prove the truthfulness of what I am saying, this is from 2009. In the first half of 2009, [the charity] tried to intimidate and threaten me into shutting up about the gross deception but as they failed, they tried to send lawyers after me last summer. You must now examine the 2 attached documents to see the damage of reputation and interference with the work of the charity. Of course there is my side of the story in defence but I needn’t bore you with such long documents that combat hostility.
Please note that the law firm wrote ‘we have advised our client (the registered charity) that it is entitled to substantial compensation for the injury to its reputation and feelings as to which we invite your proposals.’ The law firm actually blamed the wrong person for its troubles but this sentence in the first document does indicate that even [the charity] regarded its reputation to be seriously damaged that they wanted a significant sum of money from me to compensate for it. Of course they failed to fetch the sum of money but this is beside the point, they failed to fetch the money not because its reputation was fine but because what I said was absolutely true and fully provable so I was not responsible for paying them damages–
You should note from the second document that the charity's standing and reputation experienced a significant drop last summer, even [the charity itself] acknowledged this by instructing a lawyer to write to me.
It should be reassuring for both the Charity Commission and [the registered charity] that as Mr _____ was eliminated from the staff in ___ 2009 (something that even Earl *** would have insisted on even if [the charity] wanted to drag on with the problems, with the summer ahead of them the way that it neglected the problems from January 2009 so that they exploded by the summer of 2009). The storm has been calmed by the exit of the sociopathic [man]. He will probably be prosecuted for ___ and any number of other criminal offences but this lot is fairly detached from the charity world.
I want to tell you that essentially the Charity Commission is over half a year late in catching up on its paperwork and this is a bit disgraceful on your part. The trustees of [the charity] were lazy, negligent and irresponsible in failing to report a serious incident by 2009 since its reputation was so substantially damaged. It was their responsibility to report the serious incident, not mine. They were too pathetic to do their jobs, and now I still have to alert you to the discrepancy between the Charity Commission Policy and what was not done that should have been done.
While the state of things are now more promising and I hope [the charity] will be able to thrive, I wish to remind you that reporting serious incidents is fundamentally important because of the Charity Commission Annual Returns. At the moment, it looks like the Trustees will sign the next Annual Return to say there has been no serious incident when in fact there was, so this will default on ____’s legal requirements as a registered educational charity.
Broadly speaking [the charity] and the bulk of its employees became the distressed victims of a difficult man with a massive criminal history so they obviously suffered a great deal. This is very sad and unfortunate but still, there are no excuses for NOT doing their paperwork and the Charity Commission also has no excuse for not doing the Charity Commission formal paperwork. Any less paperwork and logging of facts is a matter of negligence and this is unacceptable. Essentially negligence makes me feel anxious about charities in general. So far the regulation of the charity sector has been weak from your aloofness. It is not anything like robust and I think it is pointless for you to write down your policy while doing nothing much about it on this occasion.
Please note that you must complete your work as I have explained, at the end of the day this is only a little task. If you fail to follow up on what I have submitted to you, I can guarantee that I will involve Parliament, headed by the Prime Minister on 10 Downing Street. There is little that you can do about the [charity's] mess from last year but you must register it and recognize it for what it is. If you do not do your job, I can guarantee you that Angela Smith, the Member of Parliament responsible for the Third Sector, will have an issue with the ineffectiveness of the Charity Commission and you should note that a number of Parliamentarians have been acutely aware of the highly disturbing incidents that occurred at [the charity] already. Even they can tell you that the reputation of [the charity] has been seriously damaged. There is a combination of members of the House of Commons and members of the House of Lords who have talked to me directly about all of this.
I am afraid that I have less trust in the charity sector seeing how aloof the Charity Commission has been. Please reply to my correspondence once you have examined my points, and tell me what you wish to do. Like I said, I will be following up on this to the day that the Annual Return is filed for the registered Educational Charity that is _____ .
yours sincerely
[real name submitted]
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Dear Charity Commission caseworker,
I am now formally replying to your email of 23 October 2009 regarding a serious incident. Unfortunately Charity Commission employees have not done their jobs so I have had to do your work for you.
Firstly, according to the facts released from the Freedom of Information Act request, you say that no serious incident report was filed on [the registered charity in London] last summer, their trading address being on ___ _____ London.
Thus, I must point to your definition of what a serious incident is as far as the Charity Commission is concerned. An incident / string of events that has taken place in a charity is considered as serious if it has resulted in a significant loss of funds. An incident is considered to be serious if it poses a significant risk/ amount of difficulty to the charity’s work. An incident is considered to be serious if it causes serious injury to the reputation of the charity.
To give you some plain facts, because [the charity] employed the grossly dishonest Mr ____ until ____ of 2009 and I reported his dishonest activities very extensively, this damaged the reputation of [the charity that employed him] very significantly. I have the documents to prove that even [the charity itself] considered its reputation to be seriously damaged. The same documents indicate this difficulty significantly interfered with its work as a registered educational charity to ___ , and from looking at their brochures I could also see that they lost a lot of sponsorship money and lost the support of a number of respectable organizations. Logos that would normally be there were missing. I know that I informed 800+......
You really must understand that ... (a paragraph is omitted on this blog), By definition this is a serious incident because a serious incident is something that ‘threatens the work of the charity’.
You must now read the 2 documents that prove the truthfulness of what I am saying, this is from 2009. In the first half of 2009, [the charity] tried to intimidate and threaten me into shutting up about the gross deception but as they failed, they tried to send lawyers after me last summer. You must now examine the 2 attached documents to see the damage of reputation and interference with the work of the charity. Of course there is my side of the story in defence but I needn’t bore you with such long documents that combat hostility.
Please note that the law firm wrote ‘we have advised our client (the registered charity) that it is entitled to substantial compensation for the injury to its reputation and feelings as to which we invite your proposals.’ The law firm actually blamed the wrong person for its troubles but this sentence in the first document does indicate that even [the charity] regarded its reputation to be seriously damaged that they wanted a significant sum of money from me to compensate for it. Of course they failed to fetch the sum of money but this is beside the point, they failed to fetch the money not because its reputation was fine but because what I said was absolutely true and fully provable so I was not responsible for paying them damages–
You should note from the second document that the charity's standing and reputation experienced a significant drop last summer, even [the charity itself] acknowledged this by instructing a lawyer to write to me.
It should be reassuring for both the Charity Commission and [the registered charity] that as Mr _____ was eliminated from the staff in ___ 2009 (something that even Earl *** would have insisted on even if [the charity] wanted to drag on with the problems, with the summer ahead of them the way that it neglected the problems from January 2009 so that they exploded by the summer of 2009). The storm has been calmed by the exit of the sociopathic [man]. He will probably be prosecuted for ___ and any number of other criminal offences but this lot is fairly detached from the charity world.
I want to tell you that essentially the Charity Commission is over half a year late in catching up on its paperwork and this is a bit disgraceful on your part. The trustees of [the charity] were lazy, negligent and irresponsible in failing to report a serious incident by 2009 since its reputation was so substantially damaged. It was their responsibility to report the serious incident, not mine. They were too pathetic to do their jobs, and now I still have to alert you to the discrepancy between the Charity Commission Policy and what was not done that should have been done.
While the state of things are now more promising and I hope [the charity] will be able to thrive, I wish to remind you that reporting serious incidents is fundamentally important because of the Charity Commission Annual Returns. At the moment, it looks like the Trustees will sign the next Annual Return to say there has been no serious incident when in fact there was, so this will default on ____’s legal requirements as a registered educational charity.
Broadly speaking [the charity] and the bulk of its employees became the distressed victims of a difficult man with a massive criminal history so they obviously suffered a great deal. This is very sad and unfortunate but still, there are no excuses for NOT doing their paperwork and the Charity Commission also has no excuse for not doing the Charity Commission formal paperwork. Any less paperwork and logging of facts is a matter of negligence and this is unacceptable. Essentially negligence makes me feel anxious about charities in general. So far the regulation of the charity sector has been weak from your aloofness. It is not anything like robust and I think it is pointless for you to write down your policy while doing nothing much about it on this occasion.
Please note that you must complete your work as I have explained, at the end of the day this is only a little task. If you fail to follow up on what I have submitted to you, I can guarantee that I will involve Parliament, headed by the Prime Minister on 10 Downing Street. There is little that you can do about the [charity's] mess from last year but you must register it and recognize it for what it is. If you do not do your job, I can guarantee you that Angela Smith, the Member of Parliament responsible for the Third Sector, will have an issue with the ineffectiveness of the Charity Commission and you should note that a number of Parliamentarians have been acutely aware of the highly disturbing incidents that occurred at [the charity] already. Even they can tell you that the reputation of [the charity] has been seriously damaged. There is a combination of members of the House of Commons and members of the House of Lords who have talked to me directly about all of this.
I am afraid that I have less trust in the charity sector seeing how aloof the Charity Commission has been. Please reply to my correspondence once you have examined my points, and tell me what you wish to do. Like I said, I will be following up on this to the day that the Annual Return is filed for the registered Educational Charity that is _____ .
yours sincerely
[real name submitted]
the spy feels lonely
I really feel like a bloody spy these days. Because of the work that some people do and the normal lives that they lead, some people are totally free to pursue any business interests they like and for some others it's a completely different story. There are restrictions and limits and also once a disordered person has struck, there is too much information so some of it has to be disclosed selectively. I find it ridiculous that while I was previously described as someone who wore her heart on her sleeve by a middle-aged friend, and I didn't particularly have boundaries between me and other people at university since we talked about everything, now I even have to make notes on my friends, what they know and what they do not know. It is really really ridiculous. It's so not me. But there are just too many shockingly sensitive details. I suppose I'm still broadly the same person with the same world view, I just find the witholding of all kinds of stuff frustrating I guess.
Spies feel lonely too, or I am guessing they do. How about the people who work for the secret intelligence service or something like that... legend has it that they don't even tell their friends what they do for a living. Is there a handbook self-help book for the spy who feels forlorn and lonely? 'How to deal with loneliness- a special guide for the secret service personnel', surely this book isn't published at all? And I am guessing that the secret service probably wouldn't care about staff welfare so much, they'd probably order agents round and let them get on with their own emotional lives and emotional problems... am only guessing...
I am not precisely lonely, I am just frustrated and forlorn I guess.
This is no not me.
Spies feel lonely too, or I am guessing they do. How about the people who work for the secret intelligence service or something like that... legend has it that they don't even tell their friends what they do for a living. Is there a handbook self-help book for the spy who feels forlorn and lonely? 'How to deal with loneliness- a special guide for the secret service personnel', surely this book isn't published at all? And I am guessing that the secret service probably wouldn't care about staff welfare so much, they'd probably order agents round and let them get on with their own emotional lives and emotional problems... am only guessing...
I am not precisely lonely, I am just frustrated and forlorn I guess.
This is no not me.
Monday 8 February 2010
puns on popular entertainment
to the sociopath I can certainly say
I KNOW WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER......
I STILL KNOW WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER.........
(and even)
I KNOW TOO MUCH ABOUT WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER.....
EVERYONE KNOWS WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER....
EVEN THE EARL KNOWS WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER.....
EVEN PARLIAMENT KNOWS WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER......
YOUR FRIENDS DON'T WANT TO INVITE YOU BACK FOR A PARTY AFTER THE SUMMER....
YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER (BUT YOU NEVER ARE)...
I EVEN KNOW WHAT YOU'LL DO NEXT SUMMER BECAUSE YOU'RE A CHRONIC AND LIFELONG SOCIOPATH.....
I KNOW WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER......
I STILL KNOW WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER.........
(and even)
I KNOW TOO MUCH ABOUT WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER.....
EVERYONE KNOWS WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER....
EVEN THE EARL KNOWS WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER.....
EVEN PARLIAMENT KNOWS WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER......
YOUR FRIENDS DON'T WANT TO INVITE YOU BACK FOR A PARTY AFTER THE SUMMER....
YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER (BUT YOU NEVER ARE)...
I EVEN KNOW WHAT YOU'LL DO NEXT SUMMER BECAUSE YOU'RE A CHRONIC AND LIFELONG SOCIOPATH.....
Tuesday 2 February 2010
a few concepts for comedy
While comedy can potentially be a great way of engaging popular attention, in writing comedy to draw minds to healthcare policy, healthcare issues and challenges in the world of medicine etc. there are a few things that I may focus on:
- the age of 15
- the state of being permanent
these 2 aspects are key as ASPD is developed by the age of 15 and it is hopelessly permanent at this stage of scientific progress.
One can produce comedy about the age of 15- like a 8 -year-old talking with a 10-year-old about plans for being fifteen, then a 18-year-old talking to a 19-year-old about what life was like at the age of fifteen, then a 30-year-old talking to a 40-year-old about life at the age of fifteen. It can be made hilarious and intriguing, then near the end of the session the issue of anti-social personality disorder may be introduced. GENTLY!!!! MIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Without popular entertainment, hardly anyone is going to pay attention (looking at the population statistics) and at the end of the day the folks will be the ones who suffer because of their lack of information. People are mostly without the information.
The state of permanence, something that lasts forever, something that goes on and on without cessation- this can open up plenty of creative ideas. It is possible to link up permanence as a generic concept with the existence of anti-social personality disorder as a permanent condition, thereby beginning to show people how to deal with ASPDs correctly to have reasonably prosperous lives with minimal harm.
There are other useful points that comedy can be formulated upon, like the frequent changes in work arrangements (for sociopaths), one can produce comedy about changing jobs lots of times... changing life history...
Medical charities- campaigns
I was in Essex a few days ago and saw a poster for a medical campaign, about some sort of muscle disorder raising awareness for it. I hope there's a rich collection of medical awareness campaigns out there and as anti-social personality disorder is still an extremely under-appreciated problem, awareness of it will have to be generated somehow, somewhere.
Monday 1 February 2010
Eating pencils
Some sociopaths eat pencils, apparently. Yuck. Yuck. I shall put the pencils in the songs then, next to the crocodile. The crocodile and the pencil. Crocodile and pencil.
Friday 22 January 2010
Gift of God Song Lyrics
This is a set of song lyrics that I have already written, for a song 'Gift of God'. God here is the Muslim God, or Allah. This is something that actually happened, so not a fictional song.
The meaning is that while local Pakistani people opened their homes and hearts to their guests, regarding them as gifts from their God, there seems to be a discrepancy between how they relate to their guests and how a sociopathic guest related to everyone around him.
Because this song is plain and simple, it is more engaging than a piece of work that talks about superego deficiency etc.
A couple of months down the line, I will be commissioning the production of this song, I've got a voice already, so I need:
Gift of God
There was a man with fine black hair
Dwelling in the lands of Pakistan
A guest he was
To the Muslim hosts
A guest he was
Received by hearts of joy
A guest he was
Seen as the gift of God
So he was given
Unto joyful hosts
So he was given
he was given
from land to land…
Things were given up
For this guest from God
All things changed-
The eating, the sleeping space
Mostly given up for him
And sincerely offered
All were different-
Food for the energetic guest,
Bedding that embraced his body and soul
Little did they know
Of his personality disorder
Chronic and lifelong
Chronic and lifelong
Did his heart feel joy
Or did his brain matter overrule?
Chronic and lifelong
Chronic and lifelong
Chronic and lifelong
Chronic and lifelong
Back to the days of Pakistan,
So he was given
So he was given
From host to host
From heart to heart
So he was given
So he was received
A gift from God
From land to land
Will he ever know this?
Will he ever know?
So he was given
So he was received
Will he ever show
What they have shown to him?
All this in a disordered life
Chronic and lifelong
So tell me, Doctor Dobbert
Will his brain mature?
Tell me doctor,
What was wrong with him?
Shower of lies
Replaces shower of love
Tell me doctor, will his brain mature?
Perhaps it will, perhaps not
Maybe it never will!
So scientists, do me a favour,
do all of us a favour
take the Nobel Prize,
Tell me doctor, will his brain mature?
The meaning is that while local Pakistani people opened their homes and hearts to their guests, regarding them as gifts from their God, there seems to be a discrepancy between how they relate to their guests and how a sociopathic guest related to everyone around him.
Because this song is plain and simple, it is more engaging than a piece of work that talks about superego deficiency etc.
A couple of months down the line, I will be commissioning the production of this song, I've got a voice already, so I need:
- a composer of music melody as I have no compositional ability whatsoever. Get in touch if you have a composition portfolio.
- an accompanist- guitar/ piano/ anything feasible
- a recording studio to use.
Perhaps one person can come with all of these things!! Get in touch if you are able to help.
Copyright of the written lyrics belongs to ME!!!!!!Gift of God
There was a man with fine black hair
Dwelling in the lands of Pakistan
A guest he was
To the Muslim hosts
A guest he was
Received by hearts of joy
A guest he was
Seen as the gift of God
So he was given
Unto joyful hosts
So he was given
he was given
from land to land…
Things were given up
For this guest from God
All things changed-
The eating, the sleeping space
Mostly given up for him
And sincerely offered
All were different-
Food for the energetic guest,
Bedding that embraced his body and soul
Little did they know
Of his personality disorder
Chronic and lifelong
Chronic and lifelong
Did his heart feel joy
Or did his brain matter overrule?
Chronic and lifelong
Chronic and lifelong
Chronic and lifelong
Chronic and lifelong
Back to the days of Pakistan,
So he was given
So he was given
From host to host
From heart to heart
So he was given
So he was received
A gift from God
From land to land
Will he ever know this?
Will he ever know?
So he was given
So he was received
Will he ever show
What they have shown to him?
All this in a disordered life
Chronic and lifelong
So tell me, Doctor Dobbert
Will his brain mature?
Tell me doctor,
What was wrong with him?
Shower of lies
Replaces shower of love
Tell me doctor, will his brain mature?
Perhaps it will, perhaps not
Maybe it never will!
So scientists, do me a favour,
do all of us a favour
take the Nobel Prize,
Tell me doctor, will his brain mature?
Crocodiles, vampires etc.
Right......... so the experts have described sociopaths as all sorts of things. Animals, mainly. They have called sociopaths scorpions, vampires, crocodiles, wolves, snakes, what else!?? Not very nice, are they?
They way that things are, people are still being greatly harmed and not realising it until everything is far too late.
It is time for me to start writing engaging, entertaining songs about crocodiles etc., to try and do some prevention- prevention is better than cure, and teenagers can't complain when they have fun songs to listen to for free...... I think the world is over-saturated with love songs anyway. Some are awesome and many are lame. It's time to make some songs about crocodiles, vampires and photocopiers...
They way that things are, people are still being greatly harmed and not realising it until everything is far too late.
It is time for me to start writing engaging, entertaining songs about crocodiles etc., to try and do some prevention- prevention is better than cure, and teenagers can't complain when they have fun songs to listen to for free...... I think the world is over-saturated with love songs anyway. Some are awesome and many are lame. It's time to make some songs about crocodiles, vampires and photocopiers...
Academic disciplines
And of course, from my ridiculously, exceedingly eventful life, all of the following academic disciplines have become highly relevant:
- philosophy and ethics
- philosophy of law
- history of the legal system from the past 125 years
- criminal law
- civil law- media law/ publishing law
- Company law- oh the bloody Articles of Association... and instead of a Justice of the Peace I had a solicitor...
- Regulatory bodies, the third sector
- Human Resources and management
- Business development, corporate affairs, commerce and ASPD-induced crises
- sociology
- psychology
- neuroscience
- biochemistry and physiology
- English literature, poetry and song lyrics
- mathematical calculation of British taxes...
- psychiatry
- British politics
- medicine
- history of medicine
- healthcare policy
- policy reform
- legal reform
- Christian theology and 88 prayers in a month
Thursday 21 January 2010
music and science
What I propose to do is to use music (singing) and artty illustrations to convey information on healthcare policy and neuroscience. There seems to be no other way of getting information out particularly, since traditional means are frought with too many difficulties and psychologists have already tried everything for the past 15 years but have not yielded the awareness that they really want.
Essentially, I want to arm ordinary people with the protective knowledge that they can use to prevent themselves from getting harmed by people with anti-social personality disorder, or give them enough information for them to recover effectively should they become harmed. ASPD is completely different from anti-social behaviour, the latter is a great deal less risky, yes, it is.
As 4% of the population is sociopathic with anti-social personality disorder, disasters are waiting to happen, which was why I ate s*** big time.
I am capable of both the music and the art. Lots of hard work though. I need to make the stuff as entertaining as possible and therefore as attention-grabbing as possible. Key facts need to be communicated- sociopathy is set by the age of 15. There is no cure for it and it is hopeless or next to hopeless. It is a chronic and lifelong condition, it does not get better but occasionally symtoms fade with age over a very long time. Even psychologists cannot change the way they are, and little is known about the cause of it.
As for how there is no pharmaceutical cure, I suppose awareness would have to be generated first so that funding can be directed towards research.
There is no point in giving people the Diagnostic Statistical Manual Fourth Edition DSM-IV to read out of the blue- it means nothing to them and is boring to them. I had to read it out of necessity. It is best if people out there don't get to the stage where they are fundamentally desperate to read the DSM-IV in order to identify problems correctly.
Essentially, I want to arm ordinary people with the protective knowledge that they can use to prevent themselves from getting harmed by people with anti-social personality disorder, or give them enough information for them to recover effectively should they become harmed. ASPD is completely different from anti-social behaviour, the latter is a great deal less risky, yes, it is.
As 4% of the population is sociopathic with anti-social personality disorder, disasters are waiting to happen, which was why I ate s*** big time.
I am capable of both the music and the art. Lots of hard work though. I need to make the stuff as entertaining as possible and therefore as attention-grabbing as possible. Key facts need to be communicated- sociopathy is set by the age of 15. There is no cure for it and it is hopeless or next to hopeless. It is a chronic and lifelong condition, it does not get better but occasionally symtoms fade with age over a very long time. Even psychologists cannot change the way they are, and little is known about the cause of it.
As for how there is no pharmaceutical cure, I suppose awareness would have to be generated first so that funding can be directed towards research.
There is no point in giving people the Diagnostic Statistical Manual Fourth Edition DSM-IV to read out of the blue- it means nothing to them and is boring to them. I had to read it out of necessity. It is best if people out there don't get to the stage where they are fundamentally desperate to read the DSM-IV in order to identify problems correctly.
Amanda Knox, will you console me?
I have taken some interest in the Amanda Knox murder trial, before that I was only very vaguely aware of it from the newspapers, thinking, 'oh wow, what a stunning girl, but this is a court trial for murder- not in the context of modelling'.
I do not know whether she killed Meredith or not. I suppose she is just a girl like me in many ways. There seems to be some strong arguments to say she is innocent, like the 'blade' did not fit the fatal wounds, there is no forensic evidence of her being in the room, she did not seem to change her stories in the interrogation processes, non-violent people don't just become violent (the experts will have things to say about this). On the other hand, the details of the case in Perugia were highly complex and intricate, there seemed to be all sorts of practical indications that more than one person was involved in the murder, and obviously Amanda Knox has been found guilty at this stage.
If Amanda is innocent then this imprisonment would be really awful. If she is guilty then I suppose there is no point in her and her family protesting her innocence- it would be better to accept the punishment and one would probably find that punishment is better for the conscience than the lack of it. I hope that Amanda can somehow be a consolation to me, because if she is innocent, it means she is a terrible victim of over-zealousness in the justice system. Just as someone can suffer on this side of the justice system, I regard myself as someone who suffers at quite the other side from gross under-zealousness in the justice system, outside of Italy. I have to talk to my Member of Parliament more often than I talk to my own friends about any slim chances of pro bono legal representation to prosecute someone for crimes that have been outlawed since the year of 1885 anyway. The state should take care of it but it doesn't. I know the court system is not perfect and sometimes convictions aren't laid down following a crime. It is a very intricate and delicate system, fair enough, but the victim's anguish at non-action is notable, just as the anguish of an imprisoned non-murderor is beyond words.
I might as well write to Amanda and mail it to her prison, it's paper so I don't seem to have anything to lose there. Just a stamp. As she effectively believes herself to be the victim of over-zealous legal action, she may or may not have something to say about the anguish caused by under-zealousness. As far as I am concerned it's best if she has something to say, and I don't quite know what to think about what happened in her case. I have listened to her aunt saying that because she knows the case from back to front and inside out, she believes Amanda is innocent. Over here, my case takes 600 hours to explain and study it makes me feel sick. Possibly one day I will have the time to read any books relevant to her trial.
I do not know whether she killed Meredith or not. I suppose she is just a girl like me in many ways. There seems to be some strong arguments to say she is innocent, like the 'blade' did not fit the fatal wounds, there is no forensic evidence of her being in the room, she did not seem to change her stories in the interrogation processes, non-violent people don't just become violent (the experts will have things to say about this). On the other hand, the details of the case in Perugia were highly complex and intricate, there seemed to be all sorts of practical indications that more than one person was involved in the murder, and obviously Amanda Knox has been found guilty at this stage.
If Amanda is innocent then this imprisonment would be really awful. If she is guilty then I suppose there is no point in her and her family protesting her innocence- it would be better to accept the punishment and one would probably find that punishment is better for the conscience than the lack of it. I hope that Amanda can somehow be a consolation to me, because if she is innocent, it means she is a terrible victim of over-zealousness in the justice system. Just as someone can suffer on this side of the justice system, I regard myself as someone who suffers at quite the other side from gross under-zealousness in the justice system, outside of Italy. I have to talk to my Member of Parliament more often than I talk to my own friends about any slim chances of pro bono legal representation to prosecute someone for crimes that have been outlawed since the year of 1885 anyway. The state should take care of it but it doesn't. I know the court system is not perfect and sometimes convictions aren't laid down following a crime. It is a very intricate and delicate system, fair enough, but the victim's anguish at non-action is notable, just as the anguish of an imprisoned non-murderor is beyond words.
I might as well write to Amanda and mail it to her prison, it's paper so I don't seem to have anything to lose there. Just a stamp. As she effectively believes herself to be the victim of over-zealous legal action, she may or may not have something to say about the anguish caused by under-zealousness. As far as I am concerned it's best if she has something to say, and I don't quite know what to think about what happened in her case. I have listened to her aunt saying that because she knows the case from back to front and inside out, she believes Amanda is innocent. Over here, my case takes 600 hours to explain and study it makes me feel sick. Possibly one day I will have the time to read any books relevant to her trial.
First entry! Mission-manifesto
Hello!!! Wow, it's quite crazy of me to start a blog when my life is so busy right now, but I have been meaning to start it so everything probably makes more sense as I get writing.
I am such a blog virgin! 10 years or so ago the internet sounded like it had so many freaks, weirdoes and perverts on it preying, but these days blogging is the way forward and it is well-regarded. I haven't felt like I am the sort of person who wants to share my private thoughts and feelings with all sorts of people, but it will be sensible for me to write a blog on a whole load of matters that are relevant to something of great concern to me. Everything else about my life will be left out of my blog and left for my friends...
Just to brain-storm, these are the topics that my blog will be about:
I am such a blog virgin! 10 years or so ago the internet sounded like it had so many freaks, weirdoes and perverts on it preying, but these days blogging is the way forward and it is well-regarded. I haven't felt like I am the sort of person who wants to share my private thoughts and feelings with all sorts of people, but it will be sensible for me to write a blog on a whole load of matters that are relevant to something of great concern to me. Everything else about my life will be left out of my blog and left for my friends...
Just to brain-storm, these are the topics that my blog will be about:
- the history of medicine
- healthcare policy and vicious cycles
- history of the legal system since 125 years ago
- neuroscience
- military affairs, warfare
- what bravery means- the anatomy of heroism
- history of state infrastructure, pioneers
- the sociology of love
- the social science of romance
- the sociology of deception
- British tax
- Parliamentary assistance
- pathological narcissists
- sociopaths
- anti-social personality disorder
- consequences of crossing life's path with a sociopath
- protection from sociopaths: how to discern the subtle signs
- private prosecutions, public prosecutions and insolvency law
- rape
- subcategory: rape by fraud/ procuring women by false pretenses
- maturation retardation hypothesis
- superego deficiency...
- legal reform
- discrimination: in areas of the criminal law concerning deception, persons who aren't mentally disabled are being discriminated against
- Department of Health
- Department of Education- education proposals for sixteen-year-olds
- physiology
I will need to have a think about what I write, and what I don't write.... I will be able to write censored versions of blogs and articles.
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